why i am here

what I am rather what I am not

I am much better student from every point of view, when I live solely for my own satisfaction, than when I begin to worry about the world. The world frightens me, and a frightened body is no good for anything as I know. And I realized that it is better to be hated for what I am rather than to be loved for what I am not.

I want to smile

I want to be alright without you. I want to smile, I want to laugh, I just want to stop lying to myself. You’ve been pulling me down for way too long and I know now it’s time to let you go. It’s time I stop worrying about you and your precious little life; it’s time I think about myself for a change. It’s time I treat myself right and leave behind those who don’t. It’s time I dig myself out of this hole and start all over again with someone who just might be willing to give me the…

It hurts

Have you ever had that feeling of being unwanted? You have no idea how tough life can be. How many people are going to hurt you? People say you got to be strong, but guess what? Is not that easy. They just keep coming back. Hurting me once again. It hurts. It hurts so badly. I just wish this could have never happened. I guess I am going to be punished. I have made mistakes. It is not so easy to figure it out. I just wish things could be different. Stop for once. Let me be. It’s better to…

Life is unfair

Life is unfair. You place someone first who puts you second. You study your ass off for a final only to get a B in the class when you deserved an A. You give 110% to someone in a relationship when they only give 40%. You’re there for your best friend at 3 a.m. when they need it the most, and the next day they don’t pick up their phone. You give something your all and sometimes get little to nothing back. You care so much about someone who doesn’t care enough about you to say hi once in a…

I am one

I am only one, but I am one. I cannot do everything, but I can do something. And I will not let what I cannot do interfere with what I can do.

And The River Flows

Victory victory victory Yes, Ruchita ,its a victory for me.It seems I have conquered the world like Alexander the great! Victory after Four years.Four years of plight is not an ordinary thing.Finally I have got divorce from Luxmi. Now I am free,Free Free Freedom at last,You cannot understand the meaning of freedom because you have never lost it.But for me its a great word. Freedom from Luxmi ,Freedom from her Father and Freedom from her mother,the three enemies of my life. When I received this letter of divorce at my college,in my office,I was the happiest man in the world.You…

Love doesn’t give us the license to own a person

 We can’t force someone to stay with us forever. We have to accept that , love doesn’t give us the license to own a person. I have my own life let me live it too. You love me and I love you that doesn’t meant that I will run according to your wish, I have many thing in my life beside you if you not gonna understand this than you will remain in the same place but you can’t find me along with you that is for sure.Take care!!

I love my country

I have no country to fight for, my country is the earth, and I am a citizen of the world. You know Patriotism is a kind of religion, it is the egg from which wars are hatched. It is not for him to pride himself who loveth his own country, but rather for him who loveth the whole world. The earth is but one country and mankind its citizens. I am not a Nepali or Indian, I am a citizen of the world. I believe one day we are the citizen of The Globe. I love my country “The Globe…

I Have a Hard Time

I have far more insecurities than anyone truly knows however, I say all these things I want to accomplish in life, but to be honest, I do not even know where to begin to get there. I live one day at a time hoping for a brighter future, but it’s hard to plan a future when I have a hard time even thinking about tomorrow. I don’t know anymore then the fact that reality cause of stress amongst those in touch with it.

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